Our Journey to a Miracle Baby
Ed and I began trying to have a baby on January 25, 2010. This is our journey.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Beta tomorrow morning!
My beta is tomorrow morning. I am so nervous, seriously scared. I have been listening to this song over the past 2 weeks and it has really helped me get through:
Desert Song by Hillsong
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Desert Song by Hillsong
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Monday, July 11, 2011
11dpiui #1
T- 3 days until my beta test!! I"m getting quite anxious. I still have no symptoms, however, minus an occasional cramp (likely from the progestrone). I don't know how to feel....
I just wish Thurs would get here!!!!!!!!
I just wish Thurs would get here!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Trigger is [not] out of my system...
So I looked back again about 5 min after I posted this and the test was positive. I know you can't see it, but it was. This means the trigger was not yet out of my system (they did say it could take up to 12 days). I'll keep you posted!
I am sorry to keep complaining...I blame it on the 400 mg of progesterone a day!
1/2 way through 2ww
Halfway through the 2ww!!
Only 1 week until my beta (quantitative hCG test) - although my gut is telling me that it is going to be negative. Today, I am OK with that, but, like this entire rollercoaster ride, tomorrow it will probably devestate me. By this time next week, we'll know for sure.
Around 7dpo is when your body can start playing tricks on you because your mind knows that you could "technically" start feeling symptoms. I am anticipating my body to begin feigning "symptoms" (i.e., cramping, tired, thirsty, etc.). I'm trying to avoid that, however, because you fall even harder when you become so sure that you are experiencing pregnancy symptoms. As of right now, I still feel nothing beyond an occasional cramp (which is probably gas due to the Mexican I had last night...TMI, I know!). I am tired, but that is definitely do to the fact I'm not sleeping because I am obsessing over this... Oh well.
On top of everything, I am getting allegergies. I started coughing today and my nose is on again\off again stuffy. Yummy.... :\
Only 1 week until my beta (quantitative hCG test) - although my gut is telling me that it is going to be negative. Today, I am OK with that, but, like this entire rollercoaster ride, tomorrow it will probably devestate me. By this time next week, we'll know for sure.
Around 7dpo is when your body can start playing tricks on you because your mind knows that you could "technically" start feeling symptoms. I am anticipating my body to begin feigning "symptoms" (i.e., cramping, tired, thirsty, etc.). I'm trying to avoid that, however, because you fall even harder when you become so sure that you are experiencing pregnancy symptoms. As of right now, I still feel nothing beyond an occasional cramp (which is probably gas due to the Mexican I had last night...TMI, I know!). I am tired, but that is definitely do to the fact I'm not sleeping because I am obsessing over this... Oh well.
On top of everything, I am getting allegergies. I started coughing today and my nose is on again\off again stuffy. Yummy.... :\
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
6dpIUI #1 and going crazy
I'm going crazy. Time is crawling...I'm only 6dpiui and I feel it has been weeks. And I feel nothing - an occasional cramp, but overall n-o-t-h-i-n-g. Yet I can't stop obsessing... It's so hard not to get your hopes up and to keep it realistic.
Let us analogize to weather. If it says, "There is a 20% chance it will rain today," do you know what that means? I'm planning an outside BBQ or to go to the beach. That means NO rain is probably coming. Yet, when it comes to pregnancy, we hold on to the 20% chance like it is some huge number. Why is that?
I can't focus at work. I mean I'm still getting my hours in, but my work product is bound to suffer. I just want to know "yes" or "no" for sure. I'm 8dp trigger shot, so I may test in the morning to see if the hCg is all out of my system. I will let you know.
It would seem like such a waste to get a BFN when I had 4 mature follicles. If I can't get pregnant off that, then when can I?
Pet peeve of the day: People who say "I get pregnant when my husband just looks at me." Good for you.
Let us analogize to weather. If it says, "There is a 20% chance it will rain today," do you know what that means? I'm planning an outside BBQ or to go to the beach. That means NO rain is probably coming. Yet, when it comes to pregnancy, we hold on to the 20% chance like it is some huge number. Why is that?
I can't focus at work. I mean I'm still getting my hours in, but my work product is bound to suffer. I just want to know "yes" or "no" for sure. I'm 8dp trigger shot, so I may test in the morning to see if the hCg is all out of my system. I will let you know.
It would seem like such a waste to get a BFN when I had 4 mature follicles. If I can't get pregnant off that, then when can I?
Pet peeve of the day: People who say "I get pregnant when my husband just looks at me." Good for you.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
5dpIUI #1
These two weeks are crawling by...It's only day 5 and I feel it has been years. I want the 14th to hurry, yet I simultaneously don't because I don't want to be let down yet again.
I always feel like I'm complaining though. Count-your-blessing of the day: my job. I freakin' love my job. I have the greatest bosses, co-workers, and clients around. And in this market I'm just plain old lucky to have one. I get to come to work every day and be a lawyer, "doctor" and "actress" all in one. Who would have it any other way?
I always feel like I'm complaining though. Count-your-blessing of the day: my job. I freakin' love my job. I have the greatest bosses, co-workers, and clients around. And in this market I'm just plain old lucky to have one. I get to come to work every day and be a lawyer, "doctor" and "actress" all in one. Who would have it any other way?
Sunday, July 3, 2011
3dpIUI #1
It just hit me as I was on my pregnancy bulletin boards that I'm on Cycle 19 of TTC. That is soooooooo depressing.
It does help, however, to have the ladies of http://www.pregnancy.org/ to help me through the tough times. Some of them have been trying for 3+ years (over 36 cycles) to be pregnant. Yet, they seem to stay optimistic and happy. They are my heroes!
As for me, I have no symptoms at all except cramping (which is totally expected on 3dpIUI and on Prometrium). I'm trying to stay positive, but I have a bad feeling about this month. A 20% chance is not much...
But that is OK...I have A LOT to look forward to in life. I going to be (and already am) a great attorney and I have a wondeful husband and friends. Additionally, I have the resources necessary to adopt if it comes to that which many do not. Yay! Look at the positives!
It does help, however, to have the ladies of http://www.pregnancy.org/ to help me through the tough times. Some of them have been trying for 3+ years (over 36 cycles) to be pregnant. Yet, they seem to stay optimistic and happy. They are my heroes!
As for me, I have no symptoms at all except cramping (which is totally expected on 3dpIUI and on Prometrium). I'm trying to stay positive, but I have a bad feeling about this month. A 20% chance is not much...
But that is OK...I have A LOT to look forward to in life. I going to be (and already am) a great attorney and I have a wondeful husband and friends. Additionally, I have the resources necessary to adopt if it comes to that which many do not. Yay! Look at the positives!
Friday, July 1, 2011
1dpIUI #1
I started the progesterone suppositories. Two words: Dear God. I pray none of you have to use those. And I have to do two a day for the next two weeks. Gross.
Due to the increased progesterone and the hcg shots, I'm a moody mess. One minute I'm happy as can be and the next I want to scream. Poor Ed - I hope this gets better over the next two weeks.
In other news, a friend of a friend was just diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. She is 37 years old with three kids. Prayers and thoughts appreciated for this young lady during a devestating time.
Happy Fourth of July! As much of a struggle as this is, I am just thankful to be in the U.S of A. Imagine going through this elsewhere where there may not be the accessiblity to treatment that I have here or, I can't believe I am saying this, the health insurance that is covering EVERYTHING. I'm very thankful this weekend.
Due to the increased progesterone and the hcg shots, I'm a moody mess. One minute I'm happy as can be and the next I want to scream. Poor Ed - I hope this gets better over the next two weeks.
In other news, a friend of a friend was just diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. She is 37 years old with three kids. Prayers and thoughts appreciated for this young lady during a devestating time.
Happy Fourth of July! As much of a struggle as this is, I am just thankful to be in the U.S of A. Imagine going through this elsewhere where there may not be the accessiblity to treatment that I have here or, I can't believe I am saying this, the health insurance that is covering EVERYTHING. I'm very thankful this weekend.
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